Current mood:	loved
Current music:	Twinkle Twinkle Litte Star

My New Life!
I just finished watching Six Feet Under (my fav show), and because of what happen the past two shows it just made me think about how much I love Ethan, and how I simply could not live without him.

Wow my life has changed so much since having Ethan, I can't believe he has been with me for almost 3 months now! I love having him with me, he makes me want more babies! A little part of me misses being able to do what I want, go where I want any time of the day I want to do it. But he is so worth it. I could go out more often, but I feel guilty leaving him, I just miss him so much, its like as soon as I walk out of the door a piece of me gets left behind and I feel so empty, and when I come back and hold him my whole world just becomes better. I have never felt a love like I feel for Ethan, its so different because its so instant. Like with your family you grow up loving them and you just know you have always loved them, and with Mikie I new right away he was it, but it still took time to fall in love and create our life together. But with Ethan, I felt him in my stomach and I was in love with him, and when he came into this world he was my everything, I couldn't imagine living without him, and I loved him more and stronger than I thought I could in such a short time. I can't imagine life without him.

I know I am being so sappy, but I guess that is just part of being a MOMMY... I don't want him to grow up, I wish he could stay this small forever.